I guess it's supposed to start with ourselves. Forgive yourself and be forgiven, just like love yourself before anyone else can. Whatever. The words are coming too fast to type and my articulation is suffering. ok.
Extending the olive branch was not a hard thing to do. It did take some time to finally do it. Waiting for a reply is going to be agony. Or I can just let it go. But I won't. I want to be heard. I want to be forgiven. I want to mend some fences and get on with living. There are still some people I wish to forgive, but their lies and bad behaviour damaged me so thoroughly that it's going to take some time.
Why didn't someone stick me in therapy sooner? I got myself there, but for christ's sake, everyone knew I was a basket case and needed some sort of help. The really sad thing is most of those closest to me didn't even care to find out why I was so unbalanced and onery. So I forgive them.
Peace will be all about me one day. A little at a time. I once thought there would be no way on earth that these relationships could ever be reconciled. Now, for the first time I have hope that my love will shine through and create an opening for a second chance. My intention was never to hurt anyone, I just wanted to be heard and I wanted someone to protect me from the harm that found me.
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